I noticed a trend on inspirational websites today in my Facebook newsfeed this morning. Three of the sites I follow had posts about following a “path” in life and images of roads and trails with inspirational quotes. One site had an article entitled “5 Signs You’re on the Right Path” and another had a photo of a train track with the quote “Never run back to what broke you” written on it. Tonight I realize that when reading those items God might have been preparing my heart for a phone call I would receive this afternoon.
Two months ago I resigned from an anxiety-provoking, stressful job without looking back. You can read about that here. Since then, I have slowly returned to a person I used to be. I’m happy again on a regular basis. My family has even commented on that fact. I haven’t had to take my anxiety medication except to attend a funeral and deal with the occasional anxiety hiccup, a marked improvement from taking my medication almost daily before resigning from my job. I’m still going to therapy regularly which I enjoy for the most part since I’m not crying the majority of the time as I was when working. Crying is a good release at times so even those sessions weren’t that bad.
Life is truly looking up since I am out from under the stress and I am starting to actually enjoy life again rather than just endure it. I said to my husband last night, “We have a really nice life.” I am so thankful to be able to say those types of things to him since he had to endure heartache watching me struggle through my hard times.
Today, I got a phone call out of the blue from an old coworker from the job I had before my most recent job. She wanted some help preparing for an interview doing the same type of work from which I had just resigned. I explained to her that I would be happy to share with her the good, the bad, and the ugly of the field but that I had resigned from my position two months ago. She asked what I was doing now and I proudly replied, “I’m being a housewife for now.” She got really excited about the fact that I am unemployed and told me I needed to apply for the position as the director of the job she was applying for so that I could be her boss. I was flattered and excited at the prospect of being qualified to be the “big boss.”
I told her that since it involved a move to another city it would most likely not be possible for me since I am married now and with no disrespect to my husband at all this is one reason a spouse is sometimes called a “ball and chain” – one can’t pick up and move as easily as when one is single. She insisted that I look into the job since the pay was considerable and I am highly qualified. Again, I felt flattered.
I spent the rest of the afternoon thinking about this job, other work options and how I felt about being “just” a housewife (or homemaker as is now a more PC term I hear). I also started questioning the new path I have chosen. The same path that less than 24 hours before I was telling my husband how much I was enjoying.
Even though I had a few doubts today about my recent change of direction from career woman to housewife I have peace again tonight. If I had not had to hike such a treacherous path for so long being unhappy and stressed I might not be as grateful as I am now for being feeling so free and happy again.
If you are going through a hard time now, please know that good times are ahead. You might have to change paths as I did, but trust that life can’t be uphill forever. Who knows, you might have a “mountain top experience” like this one ahead.
I took this photo on vacation last fall. We were driving to a cabin rental for the first leg of our trip and followed the GPS directions which unexpectedly took us over the top of the highest peak in the area and through a forest. I was not mentally prepared to drive up the narrow, winding mountainside, so I had not braced myself for the
momentary terror excitement. It was a bit tense at times when meeting other cars along the way up and when there was zero guardrail to hold us back from plunging to our deaths if we accidentally left the road. I had not driven in the mountains in a long time so it was a shock to my system. The photo opportunity above was well worth the scary parts of getting there.
I believe that whatever scary or uncomfortable things that are on the paths we travel are momentary and that we all will have views like the one above at the end of our trials.